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This afternoon started with ErinLynn taking me to Montague's for coffee. We had fun looking at and critiquing the antiques. I honestly found myself speechless in the presence of a woman for the first time in a long time. Well, there's that mystery girl, but we don't really know each other at all... and that's a story for another day. After we finished up there, she took me to Old Colrado City where we went window shopping all along the strip. I was really enjoying her company and conversation and honestly didn't care what we were doing... like a little kid with no concept of time or reason. We had dinner at Musashi. Sushi, sake, and Benny Hanna style cooking at the table... it was a good time. She had to leave after dinner, so I led myself to the hotel hot tub for some quiet time. Afterwards, I really had a strong desire to write... so I went to the Ritz and snuggled up with a bottle of wine and my notepad. I wrote like a madman... crazy and passionate hoohah that is probably not fit for public consumption, but it just came out. My pen was on fire. I did have to stop and people watch from time to time. I got a kick out of how guys would nonchalantly place their hand on their dates ass if another guy looked at her... I laughed... a lot. Fucking idiots. I've gotten into the habit of telling guys I'm gay if their date says hi to me or strikes up a conversation. It's just so much easier to tell them I'm gay than tip-toe around their insecurities. Again, fucking idiots. So, I finished my bottle and found myself at impasse concerning ink upon paper. I think I need some sleep. I'm not tired, but I'm irrational. I find myself in the depths of crazy thoughts and although I wasn't thinking it at the time, I really think (now) that sleep and a new day will give me perspective. We'll see...