Away - Erin Bownds
up the mountain
up the mountain we go
away into the sunlight
through the shining rays aglow
upon the peak a top
now we clearly see
the only things that matter
is that I love you and you love me.
I found that sweet little poem today. She had written it earlier this year. I never knew. Mom and I just returned from gathering the last of EL's belongings from the home where she drowned. It hurt so much I couldn't cry... if that makes any sense at all. Now, back within the confines of our house, I am struggling to maintain composure. I don't want to cry right now. I have felt weak at the knees all day and I know this won't help. My mother and I took Henry and Éclair for a walk in the woods. The sendaros along the creekside and through the thick (read: mosquito infested) forest between my house and the winding creek. They had a great time, but got really hot. Henry found a snake. Thank God it was a garden snake and not anything poisonous. I'm sure he believes he is impervious. I gently placed the bag of EL's schtuff with the other items I am not ready to sort in her library room. I can think about it another day... when I am stronger. It started raining quite violently just before we left... we even lost power once... but now it is intermittent drizzle to light showers with a spackling of lightning and laryngitis thunder. My heart is crushed. Perhaps I'll take my mom to see the Spankers after all.
=(
Hang in there.
It’s not “meat cake” but I discovered that there is, indeed, a Panero not too far from me today. I thought of you and EL as I enjoyed the lovely bread. It’s always the little things that evoke the strongest associations, for me at least.
The extreme heat today, however, really reminded me of Texas. It was “a hundred and fuck” if it was anything today.
I think they have a store locator:
http://www.panerabread.com/
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