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also @ Sheldon Lake… Jan. ‘04

“i dig my toes into the sand
the ocean looks like a thousand diamonds
strewn across a blue blanket
i lean against the wind
pretend that i am weightless
and in this moment i am happy...happy

i wish you were here
i wish you were here
i wish you were here
i wish you were here

i lay my head onto the sand
the sky resembles a backlit canopy
with holes punched in it
i’m counting ufos
i signal them with my lighter
and in this moment i am happy...happy

i wish you were here
i wish you were here
i wish you were here
wish you were here

the world’s a roller coaster
and i am not strapped in
maybe i should hold with care
but my hands are busy in the air saying:

i wish you were here
i wish you were

i wish you were here
i wish you were here
i wish you were here
wish you were here”
-Incubus

My stomach is upset. I’m wide awake at 3:27 and there isn’t enough time to take a sleeping aid and not be loopy for work in the morning when I force myself out of bed. I’m so tired of being sad all the time. I feel like throwing up.

updated: It’s 4:35 and I’m still awake. This sucks.

updated: I finally went to sleep at 5:50. Too bad it’s a work day.